Da Bian Wang...I am NOT!!!

haiz i dunnoe what's wrong with me... my stomache is really not good... keep having diahorrea.. today my diahorrea seems to be back again.. been to the toilet 3 times le.. haiz.. gng to get medicine to eat... should i see a doc? haiz i feel that its a waste of money leh... haiz

but i am not da bian wang... i dun like to da bian alot de.. just that i cant help it... sigh~!!

anyway i m looking forward to fri.. kasoshe is coming my hse.. yeah!! hopefully it can make up for the disappointing gathering previously... rong rong, i know u v busy.. if u can can come awhile? maybe after ur stuff? anyway wen will reach by 8pm.. can can? hee:P

just now went to check my webmail.. i din get any email from molin lao shi, so i passed!! yeah!! so happy!! hahaha:P

this or that

morning:
woke up feeling tired feel like sleeping late but nervous cos i still have to study for my paper in the afternoon...

afternoon:
dunnoe if i shd eat at home or go eat with da jie n susan.. in the end chose to go eat with them.. met them n ate LJS..
at my lecture was bored but dun feel like studying le.. had nothing to do in the lecture cos i actually did not bring the notes for this lecture(aint i great?!) hoping that time could fly past soon but hope the paper wun start so soon.. haiz
finally paper starts.. all was fine.. paper was relatively easy..will pass its a matter of how well u pass n the grade very much depends on the bell curve.. sigh~!! easy paper or tough paper also fan nao..

evening:
gave tuition to sen xin, was earlier so was thinking if i shd go up earlier or go walk ard at gek poh.. decided to go up instead..
finish lesson going to meet darling for dinner, dunnoe if i shd take 242 or 243/181.. was standing at the void deck dunnoe if i shd turn left or right.. decide to go for 243/181 bus stop cos got 2 buses will b faster.. but who knows i miss the bus while crossing the road.. haiz..
was discussing via sms what to eat.. this or that.. too many choices.. in the end was zu cao at JE..but the dinner was great..so full.. we improve.. from 5 person meal to oni 3 person meal..even though its still oni 2 of us eating... haha:P
came home.. dunnoe shd bathe 1st or help my mum do some chores 1st.. in the end did the stuff went to bathe..
watch tv with my bro n we're both choosing between 2 channels.. both are nice.. so we keep switching here n there..

Life is simply full of choices... this or that, ur decision lies in ur hands.. what u choose is what u get.. choose wisely n u'll not regret...

i think i've not regret any of my choices...(*fingers crossed*)

i need the strength to carry on...

hmm..iyo.. i just need some strength to carry on... so tired..who can give me strength???

its the 1st paper tomorrow..

well tml i'm having my first paper for this sem.. haiz got 5 papers for this sem.. so xiong(fierce).. tml's paper is open book.. but as the lecturer says.. be it open or close its still the same..which is very true..
well heng my diahorrea is ok le.. i hate gng to the toilets... anyway..today i became da bian wang le.. da ge say i looked pale n i say i shit too much till i look pale.. haha:P anyway da ge is really a very xi xin guy.. for everytime anyone of us sick.. he will look after us.. tell us what cant eat n then ensure that we dun eat this or that.. den will help us buy food or what.. its really glad to have him by us... but he very nua in work so wealways will help pull his socks for him.. haha:)
kk gng back to study le.. cya:)
wish me luck for the paper..

tummy ache...

hmm ytd was disasterous.. but glad everything was fine today..
had tuitions as usual then meet darling for dinner
but now i had tummy aches... bad bad bad.. running toilet for 3 times le... i'm dying..grr..

happy 21st birthday Doris!!

today is Doris's- the exclusive member of kasoshe 21st birthday..
she's the first in kasoshe to turn 21st...
kasoshe met up yesterday but was alittle disappointing.. feel alittle sad cos kasoshe seldom meet up but now even important dates like birthday where it is a 'kasoshe-must-meet-up' gathering the members were not full... i know all of us have commitments and other work to attend to but some time off to meet up n eat dinner together is not impossible.. sigh~!!
nonetheless, doris, see hoay, vanessa n me met up first n ate Marche.. ate pasta, pizza,calamares n roesti.. the four of us crap abit while waiting for the other two.. rong rushed down after her project meeting.. wen decided not to come le cos ris is leaving for tuition by 6.45pm.. haiz.. no fotos n no kasoshe spirit that i can feel...
rong came n hoay n ris left soon after that.. rong n me n van decide to go mac to catch up.. had food n ice cream and we watched the video van made for us as kasoshe day gift.. she's a superb kasoshe member!!! we walked around after that n then shop n then eddie( rong's bf) send us home... really thank him for the lift.. my period of the month came n its hurting..glad i had a lift from him... xie xie..


anyway, guess its always this period where ppl are stress n busy that often negligence takes place.. maybe the ONE up there really made male n female differently... one never realise a simple 'i love u' can mean alot.. its not a tool to measure LOVE but definitely an add-on to the content of LOVE..
rite guess i'm just happiness negative..sigh~!!

tiring..

i dunnoe why keep feeling tired.. i'm mentally tired n physically tired too..
too many things on hand to do n think n troubled over with.. sigh~!!
life revolved around lectures, tutorials, tests, tuitions, do housework, eat ,sleep, disagreements and feeling all down..
guess in life there's always time when u feel u are the worse person living on earth..
meeting kasoshe tml so looking forward.. i'm prepared for a good dinner with them.. oh how much i miss the times we share.. anyway saw the birthday girl to be(doris) n hoay at JE just now.. makes me even more excited to meet them..
sigh~ tml haf GESL show n tell..kinda hope everything will b over soon!!
grr.. i need to get a life (alive??!!)..

pleasant surprises

on wed when i met darling after lesson at NUH, he gave me a pleasant surprise by giving me this-->
i love it so much...
but little did he know tat i wasplanning a surprise for him too..
together with thomas (the self proclaim my 1/3 bf in NIE) we planned to give darling a surprise.. he had a soccer match against LTA on Fri n i went down with thomas taking Clement's car without darling's knowing..
On thurs n fri darling kept asking me to go but then i rejected him..he was so dejected.. most of his friends haf their 'family' with them gave him additional sadness..
when he saw me there he was surprised.. n i was glad it was a pleasant surprise..
the match was nice.. NIE-PESS dip won 5-0 against LTA.. well done.. some pictures for ur viewing..

the team...

tat's darling on the extreme left..

two great players in orange.. hardy(dun noe how to spell his name) scored a goal.. n kai xin on the right was really great..

anothe two great players: jian wen(he's really great) n christopher..

anyway, gotta thks Thomas for the invitation to support them, n to add Thomas was playing well too.. great defence from him.. good job... i cant help to agree with darling that his course have quite a few very talented players.. no doubt..

anyway, gave tuition ytd afternoon n met up with darling.. caught a super lame 'DATE MOVIE' but it was great de stress movie to watch.. some scenes was super meaningless n gross.. but darling love the watch saying 'she's late'...haha:)

though there were some hiccups along our date..but darling i enjoy every moment with u..

For darling:
Darling somethings between us were not known by others so dun be affected by what others say.. whatever u've done for me was greatly appreciated n always remembered..u're importatnt to me n u're always my man of the match, remember!!! 123:)

LONG weekends~~~!!

yeah.. test for this week is over.. though i know i'm going to fare badly this time.. for sure.. i'm very confident that i wun do well but i just simply am glad its OVER!!! hahahahaha:P

N.. to clebrate our beloved gang went to the SUKI SUSHI today to eat sushi buffet.. haha.. we ate so much.. was so full.. n i tell u its really very full.. enjoyed every bit of the timewe were there... talks n foods... i will really miss times like this after we grad from NIE... haiz.. if u gals plus da ge see this mus promise we will meet up often after NIE k?

anyway, i'mlooking forward to tml.. shall blog tml abt wat happen tml... must stay tune.. haha:)

when are holidays coming???

well i've been complaining abt the tests n exams.. well i have another up on thurs n the best thing is i've yet touch a single bit of it... i'm cool isn't it??? hahaha:) guess tmlmorning i have to start reading n practicing.. sigh~!!! when are the holidays coming??

grr.. i cant stand waking up early n going to sch squeezing the stupid train n 199 anymore.. i need a long break away from it... when are my holidays coming??

well hmm.. today xinyi thru evyon ask me to pass a pressie to darling's bro, i was a little taken aback n confused..haha:) but nevertheless i manage to get it straight n understand le.. quite surprise to find that the whole is so small everyone seems to know one another.. its a small world after all...

anyway i'm being laughed at.... i wan to complain.... SUSAN n DA GE... the both of u had better stopped mocking at my 'blur-ness'... ok if u not know y i was laughed at..here the incident goes..

being the blur me took the lift with my beloved da jie, da ge n susan yesterday n we're at level one going down to basement 3 but when i stepped into the lift i just instinctively pressed "1" n mind u i keep pressing it n wonder why it doesn't seemed to light up... not even when someone else pressed 'B3'..i still insist on pressing "1".. until da jie comment that " eh.. stop pressing '1' la.. we're going down to B3..u're at 1st floor u noe?" iyoyo.. how malu can i get...

n today the lift coincidentally was under maintainence, and it was jammed at 1st storey.. susan blamed it that i've spoilt the lift..cos i keep pressing "1" yesterday... da ge keep laughing at me... arhhh... STOP!!!!

anyway, i'm glad modules lessons have started to end.. one of my module is ending this week another next n soon my holidays will follow... but before i cud enjoy i still have 5 major paper to study for... sigh~!! i have a price to pay for the hols.. haiz..

rite cya~!!

Tests n Exams period = tough period

well i hate the tests n exams period... i simply detest them... for 2 main reasons..

1. u have to study them and usually this time means less time for AOB (any other business). All u could do is to mug n stay by ur room with ur notes or books all around u.. even in ur dreams u can see ur notes n all those that u have not finished mugging...
2. the next one is worse cos once the test or exam is over u are anticpating the results.. if u think u wun do well, u'll b worrying if the ppl that failed the test n exams might be u.. and once again in ur dreams u may b dreaming of re-taking the test..

haiz.. see tests n exams really put ppl to stress n pressure...so i suggest we shd simply eliminate this system... haha.. better not let the relevant ministry sees this if not i'll b in deep deep deep shit... haha:P

well think its been 3 consecutive weekends where darling n i din have any quality pa toh-ing time le.. sigh~!! guess there're more to come.. grrr...

anyway, ytd i went to eat with his family again...this time was the occasion to celebrate his sister's great work in studies.. she got 3 awards..cool:P anyway, we had a great meal n was so full... we had

• shark's fin (if da jie see this she sure to go grumbling abt shark's stories again!!)
• kai lan (vegetables)
• sambal kang kong (his bro's fav, but think he din enjoy it..standard dropped!!)
• ngoh hiong ( a type of wu xiang where my mum always make during CNY)
• lemon chicken (nice)
• cereal prawn ( darling's fav)
• rice
• chinese tea

we had some pic taking session after that.. during the session, darling was saying its like taking wedding foto... haha:) we had 3 cameras with us n darling joked that camera are 'free' nowadays hor???

this is his family with me... his parents are nice, they treat me well..

that's darling n me...

some grumbles...

yea..after the days of tests.. finally a day of rest at home.. but.. not really.. i had my weekly chores done since 8plus in the morning.. changing of bedsheets, cleaning of fans, wiping the windows, washing of toilets and of cos many other daily chores..

iya the recontracting of my singnet bradband is so troublesome.... grr...

well was looking at my room n i guess i do need some revamping done.. especially when my room looked like a store room for my mum to keep my cousins' toys, clothes n her all time favourite korean drama VCDs... i have evidence..

and see all my notes n tuition stuff are being squeeze at this small corner.. n they're calling for a bigger space..i heard u.. i'm trying to help...

anyway looked thru my bank pass book... really spend alot... what are some major amt that i spend on?

Laptop?? $2200(approx.amt)

51'inch projection tv $2900(approx.amt)

recently my specs $349(exact amt)

see nemo is wearing it now.. haha:)

i need to save... kk gotta go n meet darling le.. cya~!!

finally...

haiz i dun understand if test is 50% of the module grade then exam is also 50% then isn't test same as exam?
anyway the test today seems difficult to me.. though i can answer them but the way the questions are asked really confused me for a moment.. i nv expect the questions to b asked like that... hmm i'm glad i wrote out those analysis of the literature pieces like i did in JC.. helps so much... *phew* credits to vanessa whom i got back my JC stuff from..
anyway, was so tired out after the test..fancy having oni 4-5 hrs of sleep everyday since sunday.. my head is exploding..i need to sleep!!!
iyoyo..my bro n mum are at it again... i dun understand y they like to throw temper at each other.. sometimes i feel sad for my mum when my bro threw temper at her cos i mean she did so much for him.. just a simple errand like pack a dinner for her once in a bluemoon is so difficult ma?
sigh~!! sometimes i just dunnoe if we do things too often that ppl just take u for granted after being used to it...

the last has yet to come..

yea..my last paper of the week is tml... sigh have been revising for the past few nights.. its really tiring..
just now during lecture i fell asleep.. woke up n feel so terrible cos the feeling of wanting to sleep yet still cannot do so is unbearable..
iya.. i still have my chi lit to revise now.. so sianz.. lucky for me at least today's test was manageble..
k..will have to piah all the way.. after tml will b fine le... gambatte..

my memory space is limited...

ya i'd enuff of my literature memorising n so here i am ranting abt my memory storage being limited .. =/
sigh~!!! i just wish all these would be over soon... i hate exams period.. unfortunately my birthday seems to always fall ard that period..
well as i recall last nite i was too tired to type so i din tell u... i went to my former NYPS student's place to give tuition..omg..her place is so so so very big... ha no wonder 35/hr is nth to her mum when i tell her the fees.. haha yea why do i have more income mention ytd? cos her mum hope that i can teach her sis p1 chi too.. hahaha i'm smiling at the money waving at me... i see my 10K aim drawing near.. i'm gng to tell my da ge that i'm breaking the stupid 10K curse... hahaha:P
but..hmm i need the support n approval from the uncle-shiren cos he rant abt his time being taken up... well i think module0813 has been on the rocks... i m failing this module soon... darling dun fail me first..i'll arrange our time...k?
hmm.. yaya i think i will need a break away from tomyam, pineapple rice..simply thai food for awhile.. cos my very generous darling filled me with thai pineapple rice yesterday and its i think the proportion of 5pax.. again!!!

k lor.. gotta get my memory space fragmented to put in more notes from my literature le.. grr...

tired of...

haiz i'm tired of mugging for papers..but i still do have to..
i'm tired of waking up in the morning feeling tired but i still have to..
sigh~!!! i dun like life like that..save me!!

on the bright side.. yeah i have more income le.. but it means lesser time for other stuff..including the very unhappy uncle-shiren's pat taw-ing time..
haiz..life is like that.. u cant get both things..
tired arh....

i cant describe how i feel..

i slept not sweetly last nite..i dunnoe y..
i woke up with a heavy heart..i dunnoe y..
i revise my work with uneasy mind..i dunnoe y..
i met up with da jie n susan for lunch with a relieved heart.. at least i know when with them i'm never alone..
went to school for lesson..nth much..just tired but at least today's lesson i cud catch what's the teacher's saying..
went to JP with my clique..they noticed my 'different'.. asked me what happen.. but i dunnoe y..
suddenly the urge to eat chocs..for the 1st time..i dunnoe y..
i bot M&Ms..wantedto buy the biggest pack but they stopped me..ask me if i wanna die.. i dunnoe y..
sat down at mac cafe..talked but somehow i wasn't attentive n did not laughed as usual.. i dunnoe y..
they were worried..ask me how i feel, but i dunnoe..
finally got on the train..alight n part wif them at JE.. decide to walk home despite the dark clouds.. i dunnoe y..
darling called.. said he wanted to meet me cos he'd just reached JE too..i wan to meet him but keep saying itsok not to meet.. i dunnoe y..
met in the end, ate at the food court,bot something, walked home but everything is not right.. i dunnoe y...
i really need to de-stress.. HELP!!