on 1st jan 2015 I tested positive.
3times. confirmed.
we flustered, we panicked, we couldn't accept the fact that we are going to be parents to a 2nd child so soon.
made several arrangements and planning and finally come to terms with it.
saw dr choo on jan 2 and she confirmed the preg and I'm abt 5wks.
made another appt to hear baby's heartbeat.
17jan saw dr choo again and there it is... loud and clear. throbbing throbbing 180x per min wonderful job!
dr choo arranged to see me on Valentine's Day which is 4 wks later. and we could then do the Down's syndrome test.
however I fell sick. caught the dreadful flu bug and seen the doc on 19jan and went on mc for 2days on 20-21jan.
went back to work on 22jan as I know I have a busy day and piling up of work to do.
that is also a day where I experience pelvic and abdominal pain. thought it was cause I hurt n exert myself when I vomited 2days ago. brush it off when it was better on sat.
sch was busy and life goes on, no discomfort except felt stressful and fatigue! super tired everyday.
6feb felt slight cramps and had spotting and I still took it lightly as I thought I dun want to leave earlier (just afraid mgt will think when I'm preg I create inconvenience) so I arrange a later time to visit a covering gynae of dr choo. dr irene chua at 4:30pm.
the devastating news came when she scan and saw no flicker of heartbeat and baby size stop at 9wks plus.
dr chua advice me to observe and do a blood test to cfm. I know things ain't gg gd but still hoping for miracle to happen.
7feb morning woke up and decided to see dr lee KW the gynae who share the same clinic with dr choo. b4 gg down I realize the spotting grew heavier. I know miracle didn't happen. I know my angel baby have decided to bid me goodbye.
dr lee went thru the investigations and started the scan. he scan many times and tried several times to hear fetal heartbeat.
no! he concluded... my heart sank! I can see that dr lee tried his best. his explanations and assurance made me felt so much better too.
we decided it's time to let go. and hence went ahead to do the d/c. I know it's time to bid my angel baby gdbye.
I love u my xiao bao. I was so looking forward to seeing u this aug...
nvm pls say gdbye for now and come back for us soon ok.
daddy n mummy love u! :)
goodbye my angel baby u shall live in mummy's heart forever. 7/2/2015. ur shortlived 9wks plus (11wks to be exact) in mummy's womb shall be in mummy's memory forever.
