contradicting entry...

i haven been blogging for quite some days... there's contradictingly many things to blog abt.. but i just dun have the feel to blog...

some of the things i did:

• went back my contract teaching school to visit
• watched x-men 3 with darling which is nice
• played badminton with my friends
• ordered my new laptop sponsored by my Mummy..
• gave tuitions

to darling:

for the last few days.. i've been telling myself i have to be independent.. i have to be strong once more.. i have to do alot of things............ but its very tiring.. its so hard..

i've been too dependent n weak since i was told that i can depend on u... i've been crying..

darling, once again u told me i could always depend on u.. can i do it again? i badly need someone to lean on.. i m not used to being strong n independent anymore... darling i need u...

susan's early birthday celebration..

celebrated susan's birthday (which is tml) yesterday...
da ge. da jie. darling. thomas. me. susan the birthday girl. the 6 of us went out n had lots of fun together...

we went

1. 三盅两件 at DFS for lunch.
2. to look around at DFS
3. taka for venezia's ice cream yummylicious
4. cineleisure's Kbox n sang for almost 5 hrs..
5. to PS shop ard for susan's birthday present
6. to cafe cartel for dinner..

we bot for susan

• a levi's jeans (all of us)
• a pair of shoes (all of us)
• a SK necklace (thomas n me)

we had absolute fun, joy n laughter.. n i'm glad susan enjoyed every bit of her birthday celebration by us!!

here are the pictures!!!!!!

at Kbox..

at catel

ya there's more but i'm tired of blogging liao..

mum's nagging away.. sigh~

我是幸福的！！

fri
i went to JJC's talentime with darling.. it was worth the tickets price.. the competitors were strong.. JJC always without fail produce such great talents!! there was a round of 'champions league' for the past yrs winners... one of them was the 1998 winner n she sang 不想睡.. wonderful!! maybe oni the madarin solo was abit disappointing.. the best n climax was the special performances by teachers n the guest of honour Mr Chan Soo Sen... hahaha:P great man!!! i thoroughly enjoy myself that nite..

darling n me had a chat on the phone.. we talked abt what has happen recently... he told me alot of things that brought me to reflect upon what i've done... i realise we had too many misunderstandings that led us to be unhappy with each other... we shared our own unhappiness abt each other n i'm glad we've managed to clear things up!!

sat
i've got tuitions as usual... darling went to meet his poly friends during this time...
after that i meet him for dinner at Yishun n we had a great time at the arcarde that we seldom go.. haha:P we had FUN!!!! really!!!!

things were so well.. we enjoyed ourselves very much n that's the way i wish our r/s is....

today
today i dun have tuition cos celine was sick... but darling went ahead with his tuition with celine's brother.. meanwhile i boiled some gingseng roots drink for darling... though he told me to meet him at the JE mrt station but i still waited for him at the void deck. i wanted to give him a surprise n also with the drink... just wanted to see darling's smile after tuition...

waited for almost 40mins at the void deck.. n once darling came out from the lift i was so happy... he wore the ENGLAND shirt i bot for him... so nice!! i'm so glad it fits him...

we went to Suntec... bot tickets for Over the hedge n ate at our fav NYDC.... our date was great... came back home n watch the VCD (jap movie- Be with you) i bot ages ago.. finally watched it.. its quite nice.. the last part was abit touching...i cried..

i'm happy that things were great once again... hope darling n me will be back to our loving days once again.. its tiring to be angry or disappointed with each other...

i just want to say... 我是幸福的！

reflections

i guess i've been too petty n taking smalls things too hard... if i can persuade myself to look at things in many other views n to take things lightly...

1. misunderstandings may b reduced
2. our relationship would b so strained
3. things will b fine
4. my life would b easier
5. everything can b as calm as the cat.

BUT... it really takes time n i'm trying...

today is a relatively good day.. went darling's NUH appt with him... last nite initially i tot i cud have breakfast with him today .. guess it was my wishing part... haha:P anyway, went without breakfast cos its too late to get my dad to buy for me.. glad darling insist on getting some snacks for me to eat while waiting for the queue no. to b called..

i felt much better...we went for lunch at Ikea n ice cream at haagen daz b4 gng for tuitions...

i hope things can remain like that or just get better... *please*.... its tiring to b in the bad mood...

girls' outing..

today was an excellent girls' outing.. i always have so much fun with blur susan n my eunice da jie... first we went to the hello shop at citylink to get my 3G SIM card.. spend almost 45mins there.. haiz let's forget abt the time wasted there...

went to LJS at Capitol but too many ppl.. decided to eat at Funan instead fearing that we might b late.. blur susan decided to eat Ajisen.. so off we wentforour ramen lunch.. full...

head to Kimage for our hair trimming..i guess my 1st experience there was great.. feel that my hairstyle hasn't change much but then i feels great!! hahaha the funny part is susan is invloved with her hairstylist.. haha.. no la.. that guy 'interested' in her???? or just being friendly??? that was the topic while we took a bus to bugis..

walked around bugis village n da jie bot a bermudas like short-pants... nice!!

head to bugis junction n shopped!!!!! we bot lots of stuff.. from the outer layers to the inner layers.... haha:P

finally stop n ate dinner at Mos burger... iya i deleted away the pictures of my dinner.. but its ok.. i have some pictures of us to show... hee:)

this is taken by da jie after myhair trim while waiting for the slow n blur susan..

me n da jie while waiting for susan...

susan n dajie outside funan..

taken at mos burger after our shopping spree.. i love this pic the most!!!! so nice...







我好讨厌你。。 每一次，我都成为一个我不想成为的大坏人，小气鬼。。 我好痛苦。。幸福总是短暂的，在一起吵架多过任何事。。

也许，不是你要吵架。
也许，你没做错什么？
其实，我也不想吵架。
其实，真是我做错了！

错，在我太在乎你。
错，在我已无法理智。
错，在我越陷越深。
错，在我不能没有你！

也许，我该收敛点。
也许，我该理智点。
真的，我该自立点。
真的，我该清醒了！

swimming

today i went swimming with darling for the 1st time... though morning thought it might rain.. hee:P it was a great time there.. swam a few laps then we went to play slide, the wave n lazy river... now my back is all so red..

after that we went for the pizza feast.. 2 of us ate quite alot... alot.. haha:) then head home to change then to give tuition to sen xin..

spending time with darling makes the day go by very fast.. i just hope this happiness will last...

me n darling in my room....



we're waiting for bus home after swimming..



another pic of us in my room with tired eyes..

workout!!!

hahahahaha:P yea i had a great workout.. i played badminton with darling today.. tiring but great.. haha:P i kept laughing becos i rmb someone say he'll thrash me on our way there.. butend of the day.. i guess he was being thrashed!!! hahahaha:P

cool!! anyway, finally no more cancelling of tuitions... had tuition with celine... good..

anyway last evening manage to treat my mum to eat dinner... chat with mummy n my bro.. had an enjoyable time with them..

today, my bro make up his mind to buy N80 n give me his nokia 6280... i'm elated!! i feel guilty so decide to chip in abit... haha:P i'm happy to have a new phone.. today went to eat lunch with my whole family including darling.. great lunch.. happy!!

happy mummy day!!?

i got nothing for my mum.. neither did i bring her out today as planned... everything was not right... haiz....... its a terrible day...
but still i hope my mummy will continue live as if everyday is mother's day!!! i love my mummy a whole lot.. she'll always be my No.1, my superwoman in my heart!!!! whenever i have no one to turn to.. mummy was the oni one that shares my joy n sorrow.. i guess she's the one i cant live without!!!

haiz i feel terrible today....i cant describe the feeling i have.. it feels terrible... I'm terribly FAN.... its a very very terrible feeling.... sigh!!!!!

i m feeling sour.. i dunnoe why.. i'm bad.. but i dun wan to b a nice person anymore..

crying doesn't help..
throwing temper doesn't help..
keeping myself busy doesn't help..
sleeping doesn't help...

i'm lost! or i've lost!!

not very right day

today's kai sing's n kai qi's tution was cancelled too.. haiz means money's gone again.. so met up with darling to eat lunch.. we ate at Adam's hawker centre since its near there.. with no cash with me n darling's only piece of 10 dollars note.. we still had our stomach filled.. he ate nasi lemak while i ate a bowl of very expensive prawn noodle.. n a mixed fruit juice that the auntie claimed has 'cooling' effect(reduce heatiness in body)..

my shirt was stain with some soup.. but i dunnoe how i got it there.. sigh~!! thought i would have time to go out with darling but i feel uncomfortable with the stain n smell so i insist on going home to change..

slack at home for a while.. went to get 4-D for my mum n darling buy ginseng roots to reduce his heatiness.. so i boiled for him at home.. after he drank it we went cck-LOT 1 for dinner.. ate at suki sushi.. not bad..

came home n watch the FA cup finals with darling.. Liverpool Vs WestHam United.. we sort of supported the WHU cos darling bet on WHU.. hahaha:P though it lost but it was quite fun to watch the game.. Gerrad from liverpool played well...there was penalty kicks for the match.. long time din see penalty kicks le.. but i think WHU's kicks were disappointing.. darling caught the last train home luckily he made it..

it was our 9th month anniversary today.. happy 9th months...

Vesak Day

well today shd have tuition with celine at 2pm but then her mum called to say she cant manage to get back by then n so... tuition was cancelled...

so happily me n darling went out... we went orchard to get his mum a present for mother's day.. got her a wallet.. hopefully she likes it.. i din pay though i suggested sharing with darling but since he insisted that NO... then suan le lor... i dun mind... so all i can do is to help choose n then wrap for him..

anyway...had dinner at chinatown... ate the frog porridge...nice but i dun really like frogs... wen to buy some vcds.. ya then went home...tiring but great day spend..

new cupboards..

i have got 2 new cupboards in my room to replace the stacking up of the plastics containers n drawers... now my room look neater n more space to move.... BUT.. it stinks!!!!! the new cupboards stinks like hell... even spraying of my perfume doesn't help..

anyway darling is finally back... though last nite i was disappointed with him but then i still cant help to meet him for dinner..cos i missed him...

susan was so funny.. she came over my place to get the comics while i was giving tuition... after tuition i sms her.. she say shd have waited for me to eat dinner tgt but soon change saying luckily she din wait for me when i told her i meeting shiren... haha:P

shop n shop n shop...

today was a great day.. met up with da ge n da jie at orchard MRT at 1pm n the blur susan was late cos she overslept.. haha.. we walked around isetan n wisma first... then met up withsusan at taka... ate at pepper lunch... my first time there.. think the food is nice... i like it the way where we get to fry our food ourselves... nice... i like the bean sprouts!!! haha:P

then after lunch we walked ard taka.. then all 3 gals got a bag for ourselves... i was still considering if i shd get the small white handbag..then da ge keep pyscho-ing me to get it since its oni 5.90... he say its nice n cheap.. i shd get it.. soin the end i was happpy i bot it!!! haha:P

b4 we head to PS to catch our movie.. we each got ourselves an ice cream at venezia... the ice cream was not bad.. i ate my fav choc mint as usual... da ge ate one flavour called opps i forgot le.. but it was very nice tasted like ferraro roche... yummmy!!! haha:P

caught the 4.30pm POSEIDON.. was not bad but then i would say it isn't a must watch movie but its nice.. i wud say just to my expectation.. haha:P

after the show i met up with yimei my sec sch bosom fren... we walked ard PS trying to get tzer chew his birthday cake... in the end still settled for the bread talk's tiramisu.. n luckily i chose that cos he oni likes that.. phew!!! walked over to fish n co glass house..met up with chew n he was surprised to see yimei cos i din tell him she was coming.. haha:P

we had a good meal there.. there was a performance going on there.. a lady singing with a guy playing the guitar.. nice session.. heardsome nice songs.. when i hear 'you n me' i rmb faizal sang it at timber the other time when i went with darling... then started to miss darling again.. haha:P

after the meal we took some photographs outside glass house with the big LOVE sign... nice... next time i wan to take with darling at there....... haha:P

go bugis to meet da jie n susan for dessert.. tzer chew brought me there cos i not very sure n he's on his way home too la.. haha:P

da jie n susan mention that darling look better.. haha:P but i wasn't suppose to tell him cos he will get arrogant.. haha:P i din tell him huh.. unless he reads it here.. then... hahahahaha:P

after that we left the place wanted to chat more but time was running late scared we got no train home so we headed for home... took train with susan n alighted at clementi with her... wanted to board the 183 but then it was crowded with bangadeshies n i m the oni girl.. so i decide to stop.. soon 105 came n i board tat instead...haha:P

without darling by my side i have to b independent n learn to b alert... haiz.. i m missing darling...

days to seeing darling: 1 day or maybe 2 days.. (though darling will b off camp tml but guess i still wun get to see him... he has to go home to unpack his stuff n to rest since he hasn't been having gd rest there..)

here are some pics we took today...

the cake..


yimei n tzer chew with the cake...


me n yimei at fish n co..


us with the big LOVE!!!

susan, me n da jie at the dessert store..

tiring day...

well today woke up at 7plus cos i had promised my mum to accompany her to see doc at polyclinic to get referral to see a gynae at the hospital.. but i slept at almost 2am last nite.. so i was very tired..

nonetheless, we went to the polyclinic.. as usual it was the waiting time that kills..luckily littlenat nat was there n he created lots of laughter n time past by quickly...
it was at almost 1pm when all was settled forat the polyclinic.. haiz.. head to the coffeeshop to eat lunch... queued for the rojak.. been ages since i last queued for it cos darling had been the one dng it... during this time i missed darling's call... haiz.. he said he was suffering from giddiness from kayaking... but b4 i cud call him back.. he was out to sea expedition le..
went IMM after lunch then back home.. was really tired cos i've been carrying nat nat cos he slept during lunch...

din have time to rest cos i had to go for tuition with sen xin... luckily daddy sent me..
went to JP to get chew's present.. then head home to have dinner with my dearest mummy who have been complaining that i've neglected her since i've gotten darling.. haha:P

did some housework... iron clothes n i almost scald myself again.. last nite while i iron clothes i scald myself.. luckily it wasn't too bad.. haiz..
now i'm here blogging my day...

i'm looking forward to tml.. cos i'll b having a good time with my NIE jie meis plus a gd meal with yimei my sec sch bosom fren...

days to seeing darling: 2days

skin consultation at NSC

today i went to National Skin Centre with my dearest susan..the consultation was great.. hopefully my face skin condition will improve after the treatment.. haa:P

however..i woke up late today..making susan wait for me.. so sorry hor...cos slept very late last nite.. but first thing in the morning when i woke up.. i saw darling's sms... he said he left something at my table that he forgot to take.. i was like so worried cos he's gng for camp today i wun get to pass to him now.. worried if he needs it urgently... hurriedly got off from bed in serach for the 'thing' he left behind... but to my amazed n surprised i found this.....

i was still wondering what's this?


i opened it up.. n i took out the contents... wow...



tadah!!! its the JJ-lin's concert that i wanted to watch... i'm so shocked for words..


darling sure surprise me like that... makes me miss him more.. haiz.. 4 days not having to see him is abit unbearable for us... i mean we just start off holidays n end our quarrel on sat.. n now i cant see him for 4 days... hope time will fly past quickly... argh...

the other nite darling told me to get to bed earlier.. i dun understand why... then when i was on the phone with him... i found my pillow abit weird today... so i adjusted it.. n found a plastic bag with this inside....


i knew it was darling again... i was saying this is so cute... now he got it for me when i'm in the ladies.. he said he kept hurrying the sales girl cos he was scared that i would spot him n the surprise element will b gone.. haha:P

now that he was away at camp.. he told me to see the zhu-zhu as if i m seeing him.. haha maybe it does resembles him..opps.. darling is gonna say "lao po, u find me fat le hor??" hahaha:D

luckily i still do have my susan, da jie n da ge... we had lunch tgt at AMK then went to comic shop then to da jie home then i head home.. great day but all's always not perfect when darling is not there with me...

its ok.. holidays are still long.. i still have to meet up with frens... iyo i miss kasoshe's full strength gathering le... when are we meeting my dears... haiz..

k gotta go iron clothes while waiting for darling's call...

days to seeing darling: 3days...

my first day of holiday

1st day of holiday is dedicated to... my JJ's teachers, food and members of kasoshe.. hee:P
great to eat the food at JJ... seeing those changes in there makes me feel so old le... but i still enjoy the fond memories as i walked along the corridors of tutorial rooms, the staff room, canteen, the lockers.. the tables that we used to sit n slack or mug... haiz many many more... the noticeboard..the exclusive jj bookstore--knowledge box... hmm too many to recount.. i enjoyed my 2yrs in JJ the most among my 12 yrs of schooling...

met up with my supervisor for my TA.. she's not bad la.. seems to be quite good...

well gave tuition n guess my ankle seems to be getting bad.. hoepfully it'll be better soon...

k needa sleep le.. tired sia...

ITS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha :P i'm happy!!!!yeah!!!!!!! exams are finally over.... finally finish this hateful semester... its hectic n tough!!!!!
pls ar pls ar... next semester better not be like wat some say tougher than this semester...
iya..dun care la.. enjoy my holidays first la.. hee:P

anyway was saying today wasn't a great day..becos

1. i woke up late..
2. i sprain or maybe hurt my ankle when i drop off from my dad's bike..
3. i had stomache b4 my paper..
4. had another misunderstanding with darling..
5. hurt my finger while taking the escalator at PS..
6. bang my head against the slidedoor inside my bathroom..

haiz wat else could i meet with? haiz.. bad day la..

luckily.. the oni thing that i hope i had luck was there... my paper was manageable.. confident of passing well.. hopefully i could get a good grade...

anyway... if this semester's results all my modules have B ivery happy le!!! haiz..

yeah planning holidays activities le... so happy... meeting up to go back JJ for food... haha.. n of cos see teachers la... so happy!!! wahaha...

time to meet up friends liao... kasoshe, lian n hong, xin... n of cos with my NIE sisters.. haha:P

over the weekends..

well friday's yun sheng's textual analysis n writing skills paper was ok.. haiz.. hopefully wun do too badly.. haiz..

studied some stuffs over the weekends.. quite fruitful

spend some time with darling over the weekends at my place while i study too.. missed my uncle's bbq again.. haiz..

anyway today was great firstly i studied with su san n dajie n we shopped for our clothes... nice..but spend quite a lot..

later on went back to my place to study... we study n crapped along the revision.. guess its fruitful.. hopefully i can still memorise those stuffs.. n remember them tml..

darling went home earlier.. tell him to take bus he doesn't wan to.. then he wan to walk in the rain to take train... haiz.. whatever la... i must tell myself to kan kai yi dian................ grrrr....

k jia you ba... after tml i will be free....!!!!