快乐无比。。。

其实，左思右想了一整天，觉得人生只要快乐就好，何必去在意那么多悲伤与痛苦呢？



我想过快乐至上的生活。。。

只要开心过每一天就好。。。

应该可以吧？！！

心有千千结。。。

我心中有好多个想打开的结。
不知从何开始，我心中开始在打结。问号？好像越来越多。。。
昨天是个爆发点，把打结的结都变死结。
我需要时间将死结一一剪断再补好。给我一点时间吧！
我并不能说好就好。我没有你想得那么坚强。我内心其实很脆弱。
也许，让我们冷静想一想吧。

我正努力在思考：

你说的：
so many happy couples around. But we half of e time unhappy about each other. Either you black face or me. Dun understand. Its really bad.

为什么？

你说的：
你讲我每次生气骂你，对你发脾气。可是你有没有想过我为什么要生气？是你很难please leh.一点小事就要生气。你很过分leh。

我该怎么做？我真得很过分吗？

你说的：
we dun know how to communicate, that's why we always quarrel over the smallest thing in the world.

那我应该怎么做呢？


还有太多太多这样的‘结’我不懂得应付。

想也想累了，让我休息一下吧！对不起！

a moody day

today is a v vexed day... i dunno how shd i describe my feelings for today but it just seems down...

i tried to please everyone except myself... wat a great day!!!!

i think i will get depression v soon...

i get angry v fast... esp now.. dun trigger my anger spark...

assignment rush

its sucha busy period!
busy busy busy......
tired tired tired......

Announcement!!!

i am sick!!!!

badly need some rest!!!!

help!!!! i want to get rid of assignments....

神啊！救救我吧！

i want to be free from 烦恼！

give me what i want..i beg u!!!

happy 13th monthsary...

well today is the 13th again... its the 13th month we're tgt... happy 13th monthsary darling..
thanks for all the help, love, care and concerns....
i appreciate it alot.... guess this recent months many things happened for us.. i m glad we still manage to come till so far... thanks...

okie... manage to do some work today...
anyway went to get darling's mum's birthday pressie... bot the moisturizer.. smells nice... think i will get one for my mum too next time i go.. cos i suddenly feel that i haven been helping much in hse work le.. n she had been complaining her hands have wrinkled.. time to show my appreciation liao... haha:)

hope things will go well... i have so much thoughts and things going on... iyoyo..

jia you! jia you! jia you!

haiz.... this week is torturous... well starting of the semester i have been too slack le... now i need to discipline myself more to complete my assignments to meet deadlines.... busy busy busy...

with that i am going to fall sick again.. haiz.. think i m getting weaker day by day... this is bad.. haiz i hope the yr end HK trip will help me relax from all the hard work for this semester....

next yr TP starts its gonna b hectic again...

the thought of whether to cross over or not was raised again... dunno la.. if offered then i will decide... anyway i will just try my best first... hope for the best in this semester.. i slack too much le....

trying hard to meet deadlines :

1. 18/9--- 胡月宝's 语料收集与分析
2. 23/9--- 谢世涯's 教案（识字教学）
3. 2/10--- 张爱东's 文学测验 / ded200 final individual report
4. 3/10--- DLK200 final assignment
5. 6/10--- 胡月宝's 听说教学设计/ 谢世涯's 考试报告
6. 10/10-- 云维利's 文字学测验/ DLK final test

hoping to clear all these first ba.... dying le.....

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

for the near 21 years of my life i've got many people around me that i call friends...

to me friends are:

1. people whom are willing to stay with me no matter what happens.
2. people whom i can talk to when i need someone to listen to me.
3. people whom i can eat, play, sing and laugh with.
4. people whom will take me as their friends too.

i have many friends and i am glad i do...

primary school: ai lian and lay hong (my long term ever lasting pals..)

secondary school: Yimei, Mixin, tzer chew, her cheh

JC: My ever-crazy kasoshe.... jun ren and jia hui...

contract teaching in NYPS: Thomas, huan lin, ke xin and of cos the blur blur susan...

NIE: Still with susan and Thomas, Eunice da jie, Kah wai Da ge, Sandra... and of cos my darling...

thank you people for staying by my side... i am glad in my life i came across you ppl... love ya loads.....

da jie intro me this song by fan wei qi... lyrics are meaning ful....

一个像夏天一个像秋

天第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心我离不开 Darling 更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

meaningful? haha..

btw i need to say other than friends.. my cousins are also people that i love so much.. they show me concern n listen to me too..

jinhui, meng siang, wee siang, winson... oh they rocks!!!

love story

Love story 范逸臣

爱的故事有很多 你一定听过
他们说最美的爱情像琥珀
美的忍不住停留 而任性的风吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落
放开手 往北方走
留下伤心的树 独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁
看今夜的流星
划过了天际 像我的心
我无法再冷静 请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿只相信
我们之间 隔着海洋的距离
我的爱已融化在空气里

who am i to you?

sometimes i will ask myself who am i to you...how important am i to you?

a friend whom you can always turn to?

a listener to your problems?

an adviser to your bad situation? ( nono i think you dun like this)

a person you call yours?

i think i am a combined of all....

chance upon a friends' blog just now... she had an experience that shows how important she is* to that 'someone'...

i feel for her post, not that i had similar experience but i just feel for it...

she said:

More often, it's the efforts made, shown n proved to someone that it's NOT only beautiful promises u've made out of pure impulse, but you are sincere in carrying out whatever that is out of your mouth.


Girls are suckers for sincerity. Show it to us that it's not all empty talks.What's the point of making mistakes and then apologising afterwards?


I've seen lots of guys like these: Nice words, beautiful promises.. etc.
But how many came true?

after reading i feel for it immediately... its the sincerity we ask for.. how difficult it is? we aint hard to please..

its not that we need you to be always with us, its not we want you to be always pleasing us.... but if u said you would then please show some sincerity.. even if u cant in the end its a basic courtesy to apologise and inform before hand...... not make us suffer in disappointment and anger...

some thoughts...

well i haven been updating.. cos i haven had anything good to say...(opps not that i oni say good things in my blog but then again i hope my blog to have good memories la...)

guess maybe update abt kasoshe's gathering for yuan wen's day...
we had a great time did silly stuffs together, ate n had fun....

this is our food...


me with the birthday girl...


kasoshe full force...



i have a small story to tell abt the above pic: haha this birthday girl tried on a top at MANGO and then, the zip got stuck... we all tried to help but cant..she's actually very hot and panicky..but she tried to pose like she's some big artiste being dressed up.. hahaha.. cant stand her.. fyi, this top cost 99SGD..


this is also another silly stuff we did: we had a game the person who lose had to try on this dress.. its very flowery and abit 'auntie' sense... haha van lost but actually it kinda looks nice on her so..erm guesz we picked a wrong outfit... hahaha:)

okie so much so for kaoshe's outing.. hmm anyway decided to go HK this nov-dec hols with my NIE jie-mei... haha:) so we had been busy scheduling our time and booking and stuff.. decide to go free and easy so had to book air tix n hotels ourselve... quite fun actually!! hee... i am all so excited...

hmm recently actually me and darling had not been having good times... we had been quarelling most of the time.. i even had the tot of breaking up cos i really cant tolerate it anymore.. thankfully we manage to salvage it and things were good again...

okie... comes the sad part.. assignments are piling up again... sigh~!!!
last week i never do much on my to do list.. sandra discipline me la.. so i oni manage to do wat was needed to hand up... haha:)

okok i shall do the following by this weekend:
1. DLK consultation assignment
2. DED 2nd individual response
3. plan DCC200 lesson plan
4. look thru the DCC201 yu liao tutorial

okok.... i hope i can do it with some discipline.. haha:)
cya...