怎么了？

我不知道最近到底怎么了。。。
为什么身边的人尤其是我的好姐妹们
都被感情事困扰。

是这个季节太感伤了吗？
为什么分手的情侣越来越多。。。
自己也是受困者之一，
所以莫名地会更被这季节感染，
感到很悲愤哀伤。

或许，
感情事太复杂了吧，
让人神魂颠倒，寝食不定！

但是想了那么多，总要有个头绪。

一段感情若已变质，
无论哪一方，
都会找出许多千奇百怪的理由，
说要分手或是让对方提出分手。

在这个时候，
力求挽回，除了让自己变得失去自我，
也让对方笑话或厌恶！
吃力不讨好！
很可悲。。。

*叹气*
也许，本来感情事不是那么复杂的，
是人的心太复杂了。

我自己也开始失去自我，
为了爱他我付出了一切，
我很努力，也很真心对待，
如果这一切都被视为‘错误’，
或是‘爱’以外的任何举动，
那么，可能是我的爱
已不是你要的爱。

我的爱已不是你想要的，
也许我就懂得要舍得，放手，
让我们彼此都好过一些。

也许我会讨厌，
甚至埋怨，
但是我知道这将会是
对彼此最理智的决定。
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我并没有决定什么，但至少，
我想通了。

大姐，我知道你也努力，
正在适应一切突如其来的改变。
我们你的好姐妹绝对支持相信你。

你是个勇敢的女孩，
你勇敢的决定，
已经是一个理智的抉择。

你现在虽然只能恨，
我也明白这样才能让你好过，
让你彻底死心。

但我知道，有一天你会明白
其实连恨他都是浪费力气的事情。

先恨吧，我知道你必须这么做的，
但恨够了，就要比他（们）更开心的生活着！
加油!

sianz

hmmmm...
actually dunno what im doing...
been like slcking...

even though
i still have a last report to finish up,
i still have 5 papers to study for
and they are really just round the corner....

haiz...
weather is making ppl sick!!!
Mr. Lion's sick... =((

anyway,
had tuitions n been really busy...
n exhausted!!

so met up with weilin n all the other SISTERS
for her wedding run-thru today...
we had FUN discussing...
so things are fixed n......
haha=)) im looking forward to her day man...
keke=DD

yuppy...
and ros n weilin gave me my birthday present too...
so touched at their effort to get me the present...
thank u my dear sis....


tml's badminton open finals...
abit sianz..
cos i feel the match (mixed doubles) is abit boring...
cos its round robin n we played oni 1 set...
nt the real 3 sets game.. so...
nvm.. will just play lor..=))
btw... du tao is playing singles' tmr..
3rd-4th placing leh..
we still thought he was out...
hahaha=)) im so gonna be cheering him on!!!
hey XY see im good to u k...

kkk...
gg off...
this is sucha random post!!

kk... i shd either slp or just go n finish up my report!!

Birthday Celebrations

well... its been 2 days after birthday...
so im here to post abt my birthday celebrations...

hmm actually wanna say i dun like my birthday...
almost every yr during birthday,
it would be where i had my most EMOTIONALLY-unstable period.

dunno why... things would happen
just ard my birthday...
& gets me really EMO!!

nevertheless.. i still had a few celebrations this yr...
really glad they still make my day...
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firstly,
Kasoshe had celebrated my birthday in advanced...
we went East Coast if u dun rmb... haha..=D

then just at Mid-nite 24th oct...wishes came...

Kailing TX was the 1st!! with 23 wishes!! omg i heart her la...

then had more wishes following... from:

kexin, jinhui, yimei, eunice da jie, weilin, wee siang, meng siang,
syahida, beehong, siman, mixin, ailian, baiyun, sandra, Du tao,
huimin, my tuition kids(Ivffery n Celine), Penny(Lion's sis- feel so touched),
winson and last but nt least Mr Lion...

was super happy to receive smses....and pressies...
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My TX-XYs gave me my present n card...
the 2nd time they celebrated it for me in
SCH!!

the card KL designed.... super
touched!!


anyway if u notice, they had their
pic on the right bottom corner..
n DT's
pic was really blurred n halved!!
he
wasnt very pleased...
so came up with a
新词-- ‘朦胧帅’to describe his pic... *pukes*


their wishes behind!! oh my very very nice.....



so i read, and was very touched,
emo~~!!


then happily opening pressie....
=DD


tadah!! its a sports shirt... nice..
pink-white..
shall wear it on tues for my
badminton open.... =))

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so went back home... then go tuition at nite...
my tuition kids gave me presents too..
so *touched*
they really rmbed!!!
omg...

then Mr Lion came...
after a long day, he still came down to pass me my
present..
i appreciate it alot...

at least i noe he still
rmb,
and would take the effort to come
down...
i am HAPPY that he gave me a big hug at
the 1st sight...
very very very TOUCHED!!

AND I LOVE HIS PRESENT!!
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then went
back home... and was welcomed with...

a lighted-up cake...

*so speechless*

my mum, bro n my
future da sao was waiting for my return
to sing
me a birthday song....
awwwww... im
loved!!

Make a wish.... i hope it'll come true...



yup so here's my bro n
mummy!!


my bro, da sao n me....


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ytd, went out with da jie, susan n Kailing...
chatted, ate n chill out...

shopped too... =))
finally got the dress for my weilin dear's wedding...
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k... end of celebrations
back to reality...
n EMO seeps in AGAIN!!

badminton open

I shd have took pictures....

anyway,
yup ytd was badminton open 'qualifying'...

special THANKS to Kailing who stayed
to support us....

DT's singles started 1st..
it was knocked-out game system...
every game is crucial..


so...
supported DT tgt with KaiLing...
he did very well..

he won the first round
with a strong opponent...

lost the second round with a
rubber set of.. 1-2
but the 3rd set was pretty close...
19-21...
nevertheless...
it was a great game
and DT was surely a worthy opponent!!

waited n waited...
finally Mixed doubles started...
round robin for us...

so played against 2 strong pair ytd...
we won both games...
hmm
21-14
21-19...

the 2nd game shd have won easily at 21-16..
but i made 3 mistakes...
so therefore 21-19...
nvm shall not make these mistakes again...
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good games...
left the aircon hall..
straight to a cold bath..

then headache haunt me..
n i think i caught a cold...
so hence
dropped dead on bed
shortly after getting home...

despite the tired-ness...
i still LOVE badminton....

looking forward to next week's matches!!
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最近怎么了，
我不知道。。。

只知道考试要到了。。
先应付它们吧！

感情的事，
一方面的付出太累人了。。
想放弃又不舍。
所以就暂时让它这样吧！

說好的幸福呢-- 周杰伦

說好的幸福呢

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.

时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.

时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呐

怎麽了.
你累了.
说好的.
幸福呐.
我懂了.
不说了.
爱淡了.
梦淹了.我都还记得.

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呐
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lyrics so nice...but then
it makes me so emo... =/

advanced birthday celebration

well well well....
met up wif kasoshe ytd...

went blading!!
and
ate dinner at EAST Coast!!

FUN FUN FUN...
we bladed, tired out...
walked a long way
and finally had a very FULL dinner!!

bused n trained back...
chatted alot..
n we shared alot of ourselves...
it always had been great with kasoshe!!

thanks gals for the gift!!
we'll meet up soon for RONG's day...


pictures will upload when doris send me... =))
wait patiently ba.. =))

assignment rush

Its PSLE marking days...
so tuitions been gg on in the day time,
whenever possible...

hmm....
so its been busy with school,
tuitions...
ASSIGNMENTS...

haiz.. finally done with the last AMX journal...
and i've been spending like more than 8 HOURS on
HISTORY report...
but oni 3/4 done...
haiz...

enuff of work...
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so NIE have this Badminton open...
happen to see the notice outside tutorial room..
so mr DT xi you n me decided to join...

he signed up for singles
and we paired for mix doubles...
but then..
i think the qualifying is next wed
which happens to be a tuition day...
sigh..
hopefully can make it....
or better still there's just enuff ppl for quarter finals
hence no qualifying.. HAHA...=D

anyway,
ya... its been a fast week 10...
birthday coming.. but too busy liao..
cannot even meet up with frens..
haiz...

tmr meeting kasoshe...
at least to relax abit..
haha...
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oh well was looking thru my pics...
and i just missed the times so much...
this neo-print the 1st n oni...
taken on our 2nd anni...
love it lots.....

10th week of school

This semester went past so fast....
yup this is the 10th week already...

i just completed a micro teaching...
phew finally ended...
its been torturing to prepare the materials
and editing Lesson Plan over n over again...

so....
2 more weeks to end of semester
then...
3 more weeks to start of EXAMS...!!

FAST is the only word...
i still have 2 more reports to be completed!!

haiz...
too fast, too stress.
too tired, too emo...
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just thought this song is nice...
the lyrics erm...
i like but so emo.....
emo till i scared it really happens... haiz...

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I..
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I..


I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I.. I'm so sorry baby
But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

i believe

我选择相信。。。
相信我们彼此相爱。

我选择相信。。。
相信我的你所说的每一句话。

我选择相信。。。
相信我们的感情仍坚定。

我选择相信。。。
只是，
偶尔心痛的感觉让我彷徨。。。

希望你能谅解，
给予我肯定。。。
不用太多。。。
只需那具有微妙魔力的三个字！
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happy 38th monthsary,
my lion...

心痛

心痛的感觉，
一夜之间成了我的好友。
但是，
我鄙视、讨厌、甚至恨！

请离我而去，
让我与欢喜微笑做朋友。
因为，
我重视、欣赏、甚至爱！

心很痛。。
很痛。。。。。。
我不想去想它，
可是。。。
却阴魂不散地缠着我！

我突然有种想停止呼吸的冲动！
抛下烦恼！

happy 26th birthday...

HAPPY BirthDay ,my Lion, always...





well its mr Lion Lee's 26th birthday today!!!
i hope u stay happy... n healthy...

coincidentally, today's my lunar birthday too..
haha=))

well,

we had an early celebration last weekend...
i've got it all planned....




so i went over...his place..
we opened present...
an adiddas sling bag to replaced his old one...
i forgot to take pic...
will show it again if i have a chance...





then, we had lunch at Mayim, westmall..
very very full...





then i gave lion 2 choices,
RELAXATION or ACTION...





he chose... ACTION!!


so we went to mind's cafe at purvis st.
just nice to get into action in playing but yet
avoid the crowd n sun...



chill out n played...
and the cake....


yup then... cos we were still too full...
so next, mr lion was tasked to choose a bonus gift
which shd cost more than 10 but less than 30
at SUNTEC....


in the end he chose a red shirt...
abt $24...
so task completed...

BUT we were still not hungry..
and since we were both getting old..
get tired easily,
we headed home...



had a great LAUGH
at how lion chain up all the station names from
RAFFLES PLACE to BOON LAY
with a lame n ridiculous story..
but it made me laugh non stop...



i had a great day... and he did too.. =))
i hope this continues...



so..here's our pic of the day...



Jia you darling,
no matter wad happens in future...
i guess we wud still be there to support each other.... =))


this coming week end i still have sth up for him...
hope he enjoys it... =D



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side note:


this is wad my xiao bai tong xue emailed me before a test,
to console n calm me down,
knowing i was in a very confused n depressed state of mind
to revise for the test....

i was really touched n i teared...
i didnt know wad to reply her...
but to express my gratitude
i put this here...
to cheer those ard me who were depressed too...

我看到你的MSN的名字很担心，怕给你打电话，影响你的心情，
因为我知道，有时候关心也会成为一种负担。



但是，年轻的女孩，无论发生什么事，希望你能保持乐观的心态，
多想想自己幸福的一面，保持你真诚和可爱的心。

因为，年轻的女孩，生活是残酷的，总有我们把握不了，
再努力也许也达不到目标的事，常有发生。

可是亲爱的，当我们平静接受的时候也许就是我们成长的时候。
因为任何一种经历都是一种财富！

亲爱的，要知道你永远都是美丽、可爱、真诚的！
要相信明天会更好！

永远看好你和支持你的，小白：）


xiao bai, im touched and i really wanna say...
谢谢你。。。

to add on

it is even more irritaing
when ur (AMX) tutor
DOES NOT show u her urgency towards
giving u the journal topic EARLIER
so that u can have more time to complete it...

SHE just gave it to us today!!
expect a journal by tuesday!!

WELL DONE tutor....
u taught me time management skill!!
and how to rush a 300 words journal during the weekends
despite the upcoming history lit test i need to study for!!!

simply MAD RUSH!!!
aaaaahhhh~~!!!