another celebration.. with pri sch frens lian n hong..

yuppies... finally met up with my pri sch buddies lian and hong again... hee:P being friends for 10yrs le.. we're still very close and i simply enjoy our day out together.... yippies...
see how much fun we got from shopping and eating buffet together....

this is hong with the spiderman hat


me the pumpkin ger..


lian being the 'yo yo wat's up' ger..


hong the snakehead knight


look at how hong's face is squeezed by me...


hong's face being poke by us.. haha


me n lian


lian n hong


me.... and the cakes.. yummy


brownies and ice cream


hong n our cakes...


lian drinking?


this is the 3 of us...


a nice outing with the gers love it so much!!!

my birthday celebrations... so far..

I had a great celebration with my NIE buddies on 19th... KTV plus nice Jap dinner... we had lots of fun in the room at the jap restaurant... pix and videos... darling said i was high... the food was nice the company was great.. i enjoyed myself alot that day... thks to susan, da jie, da ge, darling and of cos Thomas who came specially for me... haha n he still owes me birthday songs... hahaha:)
some pix of that day...

the birthday cake for me n da ge... bot by da jie n susan... thks:)


make a wish n blow the candles...


look at the yummie food.. my ramen bowl is as big as the face basin...


As for the company that nite:

Mr. Thomas Wong...


Da jie..


Blur su san...a.k.a sugar cane seller??!!


Da ge....


my Darling....


on the 22nd darling had a small celebration for me... we had dinner n watched 'prestige'... nice show.. its great to have some moments to ourselves...

on the eve of my birthday at 2355hrs... darling smsed to ask me go open letter box as he left the present inside for me.. i stupidly went down with puzzled thots on how he stuff my present inside my letter box.. who knows i saw him downstairs.. with cake n present wanting to sing me my first birthday song... so touched.... thks:) as it was so sudden.. no pix were taken... sad..

on the 24th.. my bro bot me a haagen daz cake and my relatives and family sang me a birthday song too... but pix were deleted by my bro as he tot hard copy was enuff.. sigh.. so i oni have 2 hard copies of the celebration.. so sad.. so i cant post the pix up either... sad n angry.. haiz...

nonetheless, today, 25th, my family together with Nat nat went to tian le li (mayim) at west mall for my belated birthday treat.... nice lunch and great time together... nat nat nv fails to bring laughter...
here's some pix..

at the restaurant with my parents and nat nat...

my family with nat nat...


and of cos.. i dun forget those we wished me thru hp sms, msn, tag board...
thks:P u guys made my day!!

its a great 21st and i am still expecting kasoshe's celebration and my pri sch buddies's celebration... excited...

i had a wonderful 21st and darling, yes u nv miss this impt day of my life out!!!

happy 21st...

happy 21st birthday to myself!!!!

happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to SHUYU,
happy birthday to me!!!

生日快乐！！

MP3

i just went to buy a new MP3 for myself.. was reconsidering Ipod Nano.. 2hundred over is always running thru my mind what i can do with it... in the end...

i bot a Samsung MP3 that cost $99..which i tot was a gd deal....

came back share the news with darling n my heart sank...

he actually bot me an Ipod Nano today TOO and was meant to be my surprise birthday gift.. he was disappointed.. i was guilty...

reasons to why my heart sank:

• he has been buying too expensive gifts for me..
• i feel guilty that he spend so much on me...
• i cant accept anymore expensive gift from him...
• he nv keep his promise to not buy expensive gift for my b'day.
• he promised to save more and spend less...
• i dun wan ppl to think i am materialistic (eg. i like him to buy ex gifts for me)
• most imptly: his effort to make a surprise for me failed and his purpose was not met and i made him disappointed...

Darling, i always appreciate and love any thing u gave me... from small things to 'big' gifts... i guess i love the 2 tortoises you gave me the most... and the pig!!!! if u rmb... the dun worry be happy post card... becos i simply love such small surprises.... i mean i love those big gifts too but they made me guilty when accepting them...

darling i love the Ipod... Thanks!!! thks for everything....

anyway darling made me so worried when he said he cant breathe properly due to the haze... i almost burst out when i know its becos he played games, making himself so tired n not knowing when to stop even when he feels tired and breathless during games..... why go so all out????

pls refrain from straineous activities no matter in door or outdoors... ppl if ur lungs n heart are weak... pls... its really unhealthy to exercise when PSI hits more than 100.... must keep urself healthy for the sake of ppl who loves you k....

MONDAY....

rite today go back sch.... see my NIE friends feel so good... chatting n laughing away in canteen is the best thing to de-stress...

catch hold of thomas and ask him why he isnt free to join us for KTV... n he was punished to sing birthday song to me for 21 times... hahaha:)

see how i boxed him for not able to join us for dinner...


but still.. haha.. let him la... see how xingfu he is to have us the 2 girlfriends...


anyway, went to eat dinner with darling just now... we ate XO fish bee hoon n... darling face was so red after the meal.. n he keep saying he is drunk.... hahahahaha....

tiring day....

its a stay home weekends

its a stay home weekends this saturday and sunday... sigh~!!

went tuition ytd... n my MP3's batt went flat on me... sigh the journey is so bored... haha but i start to appreciate the tv mobile a little.. haha..

speaking of tuition, kai qi has finished her SA2 and has got rather great improvements...her mum is satisfied, so am i... phew~!! anyway, i felt so touched... we played some word games and old maid ytd after storybooks reading... i lost to her in old maid... and i pretend to cry and feel sad... she actually lean over and hug me.... she consoled me "ok lao shi, dun cry.. hush hush..." taking the old maid card to her pile and say " now i am the old maid!!! let's play another round..ok lao shi?" arhhhhh.... i feel so touched... i just simply love the lower primary kids....

alrite, becos i haven start on my hateful 3000words report so today i cannot slack anymore... had to start on it...dunnoe how to start....sad... stress arh....

and my tutorial... cannot dun do le....i feel bad everytime i seems to be a free rider in the grp.. all work are done by my friends.. so paiseh.. so gotta do the tutorial fast...

so jia you.. for those who are also jia you-ing with ur assignments.... gambatte ne~!!!!

ahaha... on a happy note.... my birthday is coming... hahaha... excited...

happy 24th to kexin....

HAppY bIRThDaY To KeXiN.....
HappY BirtHDay to KeXiN,
HappY BirThdAy to You,
HaPPy BiRtHdAy to KeXin.......

生日快乐！要永远开心,ok?

movie...

had a bad day wif darling....
decided to spend a day w/o him... i mean i dun wan face to face arguement...
off i went with da ge n da jie to eat lunch and movie (rob b hood) so as to lift my mood to the better side...

the movie brot me laughter and i was touched by certain scenes...
i teared at the scene when the depressed or mentally unstable wife that has lost her child suddenly awoke after carrying the baby her husband had 'robbed' to exchange for money. i was touched when the husband actually took the risk to gave her wife a touch of a real baby to satisfy her wish to carry one. i was touched when the wife asked the husband if he had found her a burden for so many years.....i was most touched when he said ''no, i've never found you a burden, you are my 最爱最爱的老婆！'' my tears rolled down...

i cried becos i know my darling would said that to me too...i thought of why must we always quarrel when we know deep down we love each other... haiz... maybe we dun noe how to love...

anyway... i am tired le... suan le ba...just see how it goes...

short rest...

ok... haven been updating lately... due to tests, assignments, tuitions, tiredness and some unrevealable reasons...

so here i am blogging again..

hmm.. ytd was my 文字学 test.. think the examples i memorise have all mixed up and i realised i've wrongly written some examples... but i think i m not worse.. blur susan have it all...

(conversation after exam...)
susan: i forget everything le!!
me: its better than u remember something but write it wrongly in the wrong place..
susan: u saying me ah?
me: no, i say myself... i wrote the wrong eg. for 甲骨文 which was meant to be in 汉字，see how 云老师 is going to laugh....
susan: haha... think 云老师 will laugh more in my paper, i wrote 隶书 for my 小篆 essay, totally wrong lor..
me: *blurts* u win!

anyway, dun care le la... its over and 大哥 suggest a good meal... off we went to PIZZA HUT for a nice pizza treat...
we had our usual chats and gossips.... its sucha nice time together.. i always enjoy our small talks and laughter... a pity we have tuitions.. if not can stay longer...

大姐 recently went out with a guy friend and have a small quarrel with 大叔(her bf). To my amazement, 大叔actually apologise and admit he was jealous which 大叔 to me a 大男人would not do... i hear le also 感动，not to mention 大姐. While driving, 大叔 sms 大姐，ask her out to dinner, say where got couples dun mit up de.. must see each other... oh so sweet... i can see the love is all around face on 大姐... blissfully in love.. haha:)

was sharing my own 'love opinion':
was telling them i feel that if 2 ppl were to have a commitment in a r/s then they have to commit their time and effort which is needed to keep the r/s going and not to say they've spend alot of time and say their gf or bf is not understanding.... and worse is when u have this prob going on and on and u still do nth but make the same mistakes again n again...

大哥said something that make me sets me thinking... he said: how do u know how much time one has already commit themselves in the r/s? sometimes its one party that is asking for too much commitment that drives another to the wall... hmmm quite true hor??? haiz.. sad... love is complicated, maintaining on love relationship is worse....

sandra said: men are from mars and women are from venus... mars and venus are not meant to be together but they are made to cross each other's path...

therefore i guess since we've crossed each other's path then we had to cherish the inevitable crossing and make the meeting point the ending point of mars and venus roads... if not, once the meeting is over we will not meet anymore...

read 大哥's blog... so sad... i feel for him... i guessed i had a wall build within me too... maybe im a scorpio that's y... i have spilt personality... i tries hard to cover up.. cover up the inner true feeling, the feeling that any human will have, the pettiness, the guilt, the sad, the happy, the poltically incorrect behaviour and i will only hope to show the 'right' feeling, show the politically correct behaiour where everybody can accept.... but its very tough.. one day i will 人格分裂 and die of 忧郁症。。。

recently friends and cousins have been showering me with love, care n concerns... thks.. i m fine and things will only get better... nono i am not trying to put up a brave front here... really... i m positive...

like wat 大姐says... 抱抱 is a great feeling, any small quarrels or unhappiness, a hug drives them all away... try it, it works for me.. and i know darling is always there to give me one... thks...

just to share:
darling and i had been through quite alot ever since he quarrelled with my mum...
we had many different opinions after that incidents.. we had more quarrels than before.. we tend to give up easily... cos we both had stress be it from work, from our r/s or from ppl ard us...
i m just glad 'love' still binds us togther till now...
we had many loving moments too.. i always tend to forget them when we quarrel...
we went and spent a great time in pulau Ubin, he surprised me with a trip to the helium balolon ride(DHL balloon) we were 150m above ground...he told me this was one of the idea he had to propose to me... haha...
we had a great time celebrating his birthday...
everything were great but why the unhappiness always take over everything? i guess i shouldnt let it be like that... we shd only enjoy each other's company and enjoy the r/s rather than building obstacles in the r/s....

darling touches me with 2 things:

1. at the wishing fountain at suntec ( e place we had our first date) he ran round it and shouted "我要永远和老婆开开心心在一起！"
2. on our way home from his birthday celebration, he hugged me tightly cant bear the day to end and seriously mumbled in my ears"嫁给我，嫁给我。。永远和我在一起好吗？"

i am smiling sweetly... i guess we can choose to be happy or not it really depends on how u see things and how u wan to remember them... like wat kexin says just double the small things we like we get more happiness...

okie... i've blah blah blah alot le.. time to get back to my report... time to rest ur eyes too ba.. hehe :)

some photos to share....

our trip to pulau ubin:





the world largest helium balloon...

(150m above ground)


darling's birthday celebration:

learn to cherish...

i think i have to learn to cherish things ard me..
i have to cherish the things ard me..

i think i must cherish the things ard me..
i must cherish the things ard me..

i think i will cherish the things ard me..
i will cherish the things ard me..

i think i want to cherish the things ard me..
i want to cherish the things ard me..

i had to be glad that things ard me happen and they made my life richer...

很多时候， 真的很想好好珍惜身边所有的一切，但心有余而力不足。
事情很多时候在变化，速度快到我无法紧紧抓牢。
伸手去触摸，换来的却是心理的不平衡与伤害。
不知何时，我变得如此多愁善感。
我越来越失去自我。
我变得不开心。
为什么？
why?
我找不到答案。
我不想去思考了。
事情过去就让他过去。
从这一刻开始，我决定要找回自我。
昨天谁让我受过伤，今天我要把它全都遗忘。
我决定好好去珍惜身边的人和事。我做得到！

Smile and the world goes round...

haven been blogging recently.. tot of what to post but then again decide to call it off...
sometimes i wonder.... if one day i look back at my entries will i...

1. laugh at why am i sad over such stuff?
2. smile at the sweet memories i have?
3. cry over the things i've done?
4. be sad that time has past n things have changed?
5. be angry with myself for what i have done?
6. have any thoughts?

hmm.... guess i shall take some time off n look back at those entries to find out....

alright, i m fine... emotionally, physically, psychologically!!! just that i need to constantly remind myself that life goes round even if i am angry, happy or sad... so just SMILE and the world will go round....

went back to NYPS for their children's day celebration... happy to see those colleagues and the children.... oh how i miss those days there...

fell sickly during the recess break last week... stomach flu i guess.... i think i lost weight again...

hmm... i had my gu dai wen xue(ancient chi lit) test on monday... it was okay ba... hmmm thought it was easier than i thought... but then again.. if i had focused i could have done better man... sigh~!!!

anyway... now its time to focus on the upcoming test and report that i have not even touch...

feeling a little stress but i feel weak to work... i need my source of energy...

think i have been PMS-ing alot recently... i guess i am emotionally weak...

alright time to pick myself up and start working.....

jia you..... ppl lets jia you together!!!!