looking back...

i hope this is the last post about our past.
because i really hope to get over it asap...

i was reading my own archives...
abt my own posts...
there're just too much memories...

how he celebrated our 1st valentines' day
was my very first post....

along the posts there were many Happy times..
where we go, eat, play and do tgt...

our amazing 1st yr, loving 2nd yr, cold & quiet 3rd yr...

how our hearts joined even when my mum
disapproved of us...

how i was disappointed and angry with him at times
and how eventually we managed to overcome our probs
and how we made it up time n again....

the sweet things he did...
the cold shoulders i start to get...
the sadness i suffer now...

maybe this is life ba...
we experience all aspects...
sadness, happiness..........
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like i say...
consciously i know...
i dun want him and would nv forget
the hurt he gave me...

but subconsciously,
i cant control myself..
i wud reply his sms...
i wud miss him terribly when i dun hear from him...
i will feel a pinch at my heart whenever
i think of him holding her hands,
i think of him telling her what he used to tell me,
i think of him doing the sweet things he used to do solely for me...

i can feel my heart bleeding profusely...
i really want to tell him
YOU've HURT ME... WAY TOO MUCH!!!